Our adoption journey began just shortly after we lost our twin sons. After several miscarriages, failed fertility and the tragic events of losing our boys, we began to wonder if it would ever be possible for us to keep a pregnancy to full term. While we do continue to hope that someday, this may be part of Heavenly Father's plan for us, our hopes and our hearts turned toward adoption to help us in our desires for children. A few months after our loss, a friend of a friend had a little girl. This sweet baby girl was born with drugs in her system. CPS immediately stepped in and took custody of the sweet baby. Because our friend knew that we wanted children so badly, she spoke with her friend and tried to help her see how we could help her in this delicate situation. We immediately became hopeful that this young women would make a wise choice for her daughter. We even had the opportunity to visit this sweet peanut in the hospital. Unfortunately, this young mother chose to attempt to keep this little one. We respect her choice and pray regularly for her and her little one. They unfortunately currently continue to struggle.
Shortly after that experience, we can began looking into adoption more seriously. We had been instantly willing to take in this little one, so why shouldn't we pursue adoption??? We began the process of becoming certified foster parents with the State of Arizona. About halfway into the classes, we met a another beautiful young woman. It was a very random meeting (at a wig store). I happened to be telling a friend we were looking into adoption and she overheard me and let me know she was pregnant and possibly looking to place her baby for adoption. After meeting and talking with her several times, she decided to place her child with us! We were absolutely thrilled. We couldn't believe how easy things had been, and decided that it was definitely Heavenly Father's will being done. After much prayer, we decided that we had a much better feeling about pursuing the private adoption rather than the foster program, so we began focusing our energies in that direction and stopped attending the classes. After a few weeks of communication, everything just stopped. We stopped hearing from her, she stopped returning calls and texts. A few weeks after that, she removed her profile from facebook. We are not sure what happened to her, our last communication was simply "ill send you directions to the doctors office in a couple of days" and then she was gone. We again, respect her decision and pray for her and her little one, wherever they are. We hope that they are happy and healthy and doing well. A similar experience happened again and we began wondering what in the world Heavenly Father's plan truly was for us.
After again many prayers, we decided that we would pursue adoption through an agency and become certified and then see what doors opened. So here we are. Our hearts, our arms and our home is open and willing and waiting for a little one to join our family. There is a quote that I recently found that is posted on this blog which sums up our feelings on children. it states:
"Everywhere in nature we are taught the lessons of patience and waiting. We want things a long time before we get them, and the fact that we want them a long time makes them all the more precious when they come. ~Joseph F. Smith.
We have been waiting for little ones to come to our family for what feels like a very long time and we absolutely believe that after everything we have endured, any child that joins our family will absolutely be beyond so precious to us. Without a doubt we will be so grateful and so in love with any baby that even temper tantrums, sleepless nights, spit up, etc. will seem like such a blessing. Any child that joins our family will be loved, will be cherished, will be cared for, will be supported and uplifted throughout their life.
We know that we are still at the start of our story. We hope and pray that we find our happily ever after soon. Until then, we are....
the Mr, the Mrs, & patiently waiting for more.
